Remembering Nana

It is hard to think how time can fly bye. It will be the second anniversary of my Nana's death this April 26. I can't believe it's been that long. It's hard to think that I haven't talked or hugged or even held her hand for almost two years. It's still so hard after that long! I still remember everything about her. The night she pasted, when she came to my bridal shower, the summers I stayed with her, all the shopping we did, the trips we would make to my great-grandma's house, and the times I'm sure I made her SO made at me. She was such a big part of me, of my life, of who I am today. I could call her and talk to her about everything and she would understand and still love me. She was just like a second mom to me. She loved Blake but still would let me know I was "to young to get married!". She was still so happy for us and did fully support us. I can only think of what she'd be saying to me now knowing I'm pregnant. She'd probably tell me "I'm making her feel really old and to stop!!" "She may not have been ready to be a GREAT-grandma yet?" But with giving me a hard time I know she would still be elated for me. It would probably be driving her nuts not knowing what I'm having. She would want to shop for it! "Never pay for anything full price, if you wait a week it will be on sale for a lot less!"

All I want to say to everyone is to let your loved ones know how much you love them every day because you never know how fast they may be taken from you. My Nana was taken so fast less then four weeks after I just saw her. She was an amazing woman. Beautiful, full of life, and not even knowing what was gong on. I planted this tree last year in memory of her. It has beautiful pink and white flowers that bloom in the spring. This year I wanted to adorn it like I remember my Nana. She was always decked out, the whole shebang! Earrings, necklace, rings, perfume, the perfect outfit with the perfect shoes. So in part the flower bed with the beautiful flowers are the necklace around the gorgeous face. I see it every time I pull into my house. Still beautiful, full of life, and it will always be growing with me and my family. I do know that she is still with me. Looking throw my eyes, in my smile, and in my big heart. She taught me a lot and I will carry that with me forever. I still miss her everyday and love her even more!